Friday, November 6, 2009

My Favorite Fat Dog - Rest In Peace

As much as it pains me to post this, my baby Chelsea had cancer in her spleen & her lungs. Even though she was diagnosed with Lyme Disease, her conditon worsened & when I took her back to the vet to be re-examined. She was x-rayed & we found all the cancer.

Chelsea had a really rough week & I just couldn't allow her quality of life to continue in such an awful painful manner.

I made the choice to have her euthanized. It was the most difficult thing that I have done in a long, long time. I called my DSD#1 & just cried, and boo-hooed. I'm doing it as I type......My daughters both called Chelsea thier sister. Chelsea's death is extrememly difficult for me. Just really hard. I can't even explain it.

I very much miss my baby dog & last night is the first night in over 10 years that I have been without her. I can't even think about her without just breaking down in tears.

Yes, folks, I know she was just a dog. But she was just MY DOG. My companion, my friend, my personal love muffin, my buddy, my sanity sometimes....And I love her.

Sam

16 comments:

Kat said...

..I cry with you, my friend..

Barb said...

My heart goes out to you....and yes, it was just a dog but you are right....this was your dog and you loved her.....so I am sorry.

Mia's Cottage said...

ooohhh, I new something was up when you hadn't surfaced for a couple of days. I told Mark last night, that was my guess and I was right. I am sooo sorry, I get very attatched to my dogs also. When I lost mine, I cried and cried. I wouldn't let anyone say his name because I would cry every time I heard it. If anything evers happens to Steven's I will be a total wreck!

~Joan said...

So sorry for you! I know the decision will weigh on your mind, but you did the right thing.

~Joan, who is dogless, but not heartless <3

Chris said...

Oh, that's so sad, I'm really sorry. Dogs really are companions, of course you are missing her. I was walking the other morning and met someone who was not walking their usual dog, but a different dog. It turns out that the original dog died suddenly. They had a new one, but they broke down right on the path when they were talking about it.

Greg said...

Sometimes the most difficult decision to make is whats best for our pets. You ended her pain and suffering the quickest and most humane way possible. It's okay to cry over a lost pet, after all they are a big part of our families and ourselves. Even though Chelsea is not with you anymore, she's looking down on you and she'll always be with you in spirit.

Serena said...

Awww Sam this has me in tears. Not only do I totally understand but shortly after Sophia was born I lost my Chelsea, a pound kitty we adopted when I was 5. We lost a cat but we really lost a member of the family!!

Let me know if there is anything I can do. I still cry about Chelsea when I think of her, even the good parts I miss so much.

I'm sending you my love and prayers for your entire family!!

Debbie said...

Sam,
I am so sorry. My heart is with you and Chelsea now. She was not "just a dog". Many of us out here understand that love and that relationship. Those who don't understand don't matter.
I know that your Chelsea is now watching over you from her very special dog bed up in Heaven.....

Denise in PA said...

Dear Sam, my heart is breaking for you. I completely understand what you are going through and I am so sorry. I know you did the right thing hard as it was and take comfort in knowing what a wonderful life you gave her. I'm sure she knew how loved she was and that is what is most important (and no, she wasn't just a dog). Hugs to you.

Cathy said...

I understand 100%.....and I am so sorry that your beloved dog had to go to the Rainbow Bridge.
Take care of yourself,
Cathy

Allie said...

I'm so, so sorry....I know how hard this is. And for those who say just a dog, I say no....a companion, a faithful friend, a pure bundle of unconditional devotion all wrapped up in a wiggly furry body, ever happy to see you. I am sharing your grief tonight, hon.

Anonymous said...

I just came across your page by accident...but had to leave a comment. Having gone through the same thing 3 years ago, my heart breaks for you. The only thing that got me through was knowing how lucky I was to have had my dog, and how lucky he was to have had an owner who cared so much about him. And it sounds like your dog was very, very lucky to have had an owner like you. You did the right thing, which is usually the hardest thing to do.

Sandy said...

I just came over from Serena's blog to wish you well. I know how you feel, we have had to have 2 of our dogs put down. It is an awful decision, but one that we have to do to avoid suffering for them. Several years ago when we had our beloved black lab, Bear, put down, the Vet's office sent us this sweet card that I have kept and I always share the verse (which always makes me cry) with friends that have lost a pet. Here it is:
Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears, but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you...I loved you so- 'twas Heaven here with you!
Isla Paschal Richardson

Sandy said...

I just came over from Serena's blog to wish you well. I know how you feel, we have had to have 2 of our dogs put down. It is an awful decision, but one that we have to do to avoid suffering for them. Several years ago when we had our beloved black lab, Bear, put down, the Vet's office sent us this sweet card that I have kept and I always share the verse (which always makes me cry) with friends that have lost a pet. Here it is:
Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears, but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you...I loved you so- 'twas Heaven here with you!
Isla Paschal Richardson

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear about Chelsea. I am sure her loss leaves a tremendous hole in your life. My heart goes out to you. Big hugs.

Anonymous said...

M-
You know my heart goes out to you. Chelsea will be missed by plenty, she was surely one of a kind. I know of one little weenie dog that will miss her. She was his friend.
Know this that I love you,
DS#1